Johnny Ruffo has opened up about the moment he was diagnosed with brain cancer.
The 34-year-old X Factor star was given the life-changing news in 2017, and told radio hosts Fitzy and Wippa about that day.
“It just felt like everything came crashing down,” he admitted. “And it was a horrible feeling. You know, you get that diagnosis, and even when I went in to receive the diagnosis, I felt as if the oncologist had the impression that I already knew.”
Listen to Ruffo’s interview above.
He continued, admitting the oncologist hadn’t actually cleared up if he had cancer or not: “Because I went in there, and then they [immediately] started talking about treatment. And I’m like, ah, so it’s malignant yeah?”
When the oncologist confirmed he had cancer, Ruffo said he needed a moment.
“I had to let that sink in. And I’m like ‘Ah okay’. And I’m just sitting there, like ‘Shit I’ve got cancer’. And the oncologist is just running through the treatment, which I didn’t hear any of because I’m in this other world,” he said.
Earlier in the interview, Ruffo shared the admission that prior to his diagnosis he felt “invincible”.
“Honestly, before everything happened with my brain cancer, I felt somewhat invincible. Like that every time I’d have a shot at something, like kicking a goal, it would just, it worked,” he said.
“It sailed through. And I just felt like I was kicking goals left right and centre.”
Since his diagnosis, Ruffo has been greatly supported by his family and loving girlfriend, Tahnee Sims.
Ruffo first met Sims at a dance studio in 2015 and the two have been together ever since.
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When pressed by Wippa, the singer also admitted he does feel angry about his illness.
“Yeah, I think so. I’m definitely not happy about it,” was his initial response to the question.
He added: “I’m angry about it, there’s so many emotions that I feel about it. I’m angry. I’m sad. I’m… there’s so many feelings that are just balled up.
“Sometimes you don’t know what to feel. I’m sad. There are still days where I’m happy like Tahnee and I, we find the goodness and the joy in every little moment that we can.”
Ruffo has just released an autobiography about his life, titled No Finish Line which is now available in all good book stores.